Things I need to do: 2012 what will you do to me?

2012 is around the corner. There are several things I want to be different this year. I want to have control. I want order. I want health. I want peace. I want balance. I want to be mindful and purposeful. I know these are a lot of wants and a lot of the same wants I search for, seemingly without result, every year. My dear friend, posing as my secret RS sister, gave me a calendar of ways to grow closer to the Savior. It's wonderful, really. But it's got me bugged, strangely. I know there is something awry with my worship and devotion, but still I'm not picking up my scriptures and changing things. I know there is definitely something awry with my personal care. I need to exercise. I need to plan and eat better. But even though this Christmas break has afforded me extra time and DH even home, I've only been running once (with a resulting return of the cold that will never leave) and no other forms of exercise at all. My kids need to find self-motivation. My only success on this point has been buying a 3DS for Christmas, for me, with which I am rewarding them with minutes to play in exchange for family work completed, piano practiced,etc and pulling minutes for peskiness and general bad behavior. The boys seem most motivated. CE has been in a major funk this break, complaining about everything. The 3DS seems to have limited effect on her motivation. Because of changes in DH's job, we will now have a great deal more paper juggling and budgeting to do. We want to really stay on top of things this time, but the best I can seem to manage is to open a budget file on my computer and stare at it. I need to sleep and wake at better times, but have dug myself and my entire family into a Christmas break upside down hole of Alice in Wonderland proportion that will bite us all in the butt in a few short days. And I have this cold, where I don't breathe, sleep fitfully and generally feel grumpy, unwell and filled with this ridiculous malaise. Happy New Year!